in the end

I feel much better than last time. At least, I don't feel that pain as last time.

I dont know what does it mean. Maybe feel there is not more important at all.

I guess that is good situation what .. Am I right?

This situation show that our relation is going to end.. including friendship ~..

I know.. Your ex and you are friend now and from her status, she is quite enjoy what you are giving her.

words, attitude, behavior and so on. start from that day onward, your msg is reducing....

yea, you might think you got me..XD (my opinion)

I have not idea ya .. just I don't have other reason to cover this situation.. 

Never mind, as you say, there are alot of girl or boy outside. what should I scare..

And I have those qualified !. therefore, there are not much worry I can feel ~

as a result, What for I still worry !!

Actually, I do mind is that I m feel that you are fool on me !.. That's why I feel sad and emo !

Emo Period?

Erm.. No Emo from now on.. 
I guess I am quite emo recently. 
End up, I learn something that I have to always learn it from many things. 
A word, two words, three words = let it be ~


There are many things that we could not control it. Although we want it that way but the those things will go it in different way. This is what we can't expect to. therefore, the only thing we can do is just let it go. Sometimes let it go might have unexpectedness result that we have get it. maybe it is good but maybe it is bad. Who knows, is it all depend on yourself , right? I know no pain no gain. Yes, I agree with this statement always. End up, I get pain  and I gain something else. You never know your action is hurting people. You said you dislike hurting people and I'm guess everyone has that thought. Even for myself, I do also. Just thing always goes in wrong way. Never mind, the most important is I able to learn something from you AGAIN!.. 


I wish I can trust on you. However, I find it so difficult and I feel more secure when I able to read her news and mind. I do not whether she knows that I always read her Blog or what else. yet, her impression is not that good on my view and she is a girl. I m girl too. I know what she think of . therefore, her words might be real ! yea.. it is real. Those words hurt me badly, badly, badly, badly, and very badly. ! I almost cry that when I saw her post.  "Finally he told me all the truth.... Makes me cry like hell..... Feel really sorry.... Really really sorry to you babe...... T.T" & "Sorry babe... I really dunno you need to suffer alot in this too.... :( Sayang~~~" "原来世界上真的有这种男人... 现在我真的觉得很幸福~ 真的很谢谢你~ <3" "我的男人...告诉我真相了~ 他让我真的深深的感动到了..." "kelvin tan 啦~哈哈哈哈~哪有可能是金在在啊~等下一世吧 "  
hahaaha..so funny, right? however, in the end.. I have control myself back !. after half an hour... It takes me some times. ! I've feel disappointed on you ! very very very very very much !. never mind!. Take some times to digest and think carefully . after this week, we are able to see the result.. depend lar !. haahha..  Somemore, I have not enough time to post something here but i still wan post it because I have end up those feeling by using writing those out !. 


And lastly, I'm let it go  by naturally. Sometimes We have to put effort on it only able to get back what we intend to get !. But not, on this part, i choose others way which is let it go ~. will much more simple ~! i believe that ! 

Hurts !

How ? How I m going to cover those hurts???
I thought I m not care about you anymore ~. but I m still care of it !
ha... I m useless? I m crazy?
YES !.. I am !.
I always be what ~
Am I right? I don't really feel relax although I did lots of thing that really reduce my stress..

When it becoming useless.. I m becoming weakness and weakness already..
How I m going to be tough enough? I hope that the time can return in to the past !

I almost cry when I saw that message !.. I have not idea why I becoming so emotion.
Your man ~hahaha.. yup.. he is your man ~.
I wish that both of you could get together as soon as possible ya ~~
okay ~.. I will let it be ~...

Good luck ~

累垮了

很累很累很累!.. 我除了喊累还是累 !
I have no idea.. those stress is it that i bring it to my self !?

Except you.. i guess no more !.. am i right?
haiz.. I just cant tahan what you all did !..
Come on !. this is a group assignment !.. we have to do it by team work.. not individual !
I know.. My fren said that :" the more u do, the more thing u learn" ..
she is right !..
Just do not bring all the thing together ..

OKAY ????????

Be Quiet !

Sometimes be quiet is nicer than talk something !. 

It is true. 

I have not idea what situation that I'm facing now !. 

I feel it's hard to digest  ! I thought I'm quite open minded !

after I know that reason. I'm try to digest it !.. To accept it. 

At first, I think I can accept it very fast.

However, it is out of my expectation !.

From tuesday till now, I still cant accept it is fact !. Although you told me that the reason. 

It is not the same !!!! The reason you gave them .. What are you explain to them !. For me, You are telling me other reason. Somehow there is one of the reason but this is not a main reason !

Okay.. HE did the same with you !. However, I just cant accept you did the same thing !. 

Why? I have not idea why i cant to accept that ! Maybe i know you longer. Therefore, I know your personality. I just have no idea why you change it so much !.,

Until it too over !.. 

Seriously, I dont know I should put trust on you o not ! This is a big problem for me !

without that thing, i guess i wont go into any relationship with anyone !. 

I need safe !. secure !.. This is what i want ! 

At last, I feel is very not secure !. however, I will try to put trust on you again !. 

I wish I can get the result that I want from you !. 

After this year, I think I will know the result !.

Let's us wait !. if this year does not have other thing happen, i guess we will together on next year !. 

This is what I believe on !. And he is right, if he did not told me that. I guess I might together with you as fast as possible !. luckily, you stop me !.Thanks god !