tiredness ~~

A complex feeling, relationship, and stuff !!
... Really feel wanna to rest !.. But when I m resting.. I m busy on thinking of u !..
seriously illness !.. This is what I don't want it happen!

Actually the situation I having right now is more likely same as previous.
A boy having a grilfriend.. and blah blah blah blah.. and said feeling want to break with her in the early time, but dont have this and that !..

What foolish thing that you are telling !
therefore, boy's words are really hard believe !..
We know we all are selfish !.. but then should we clearly know what are WE doing??
WE DON't KNOW..
Do not never ever tell me that " i know Who is suit me or what"
all are bullshit !.. ..
even girl's word also hard to believe.. as a result, should I believe it?

After a minutes.. Feel wanna to against my word at the above..
Doesnot mean that we are do not know what are we doing now!
Maybe we are confusing that something is needed by us !... Actually there is nothing is needed by us !..
All the thing is WANT from you !..NOT A NEED!

I guess I am confusing myself !.. YEAH...It is !
However, today I am quite enjoy on Math class which is on 4 to 6 pm ...
Miss Soong did something that very funny and she is cute..
She keeps repeating some action which is did by a student .. Wrap a paper irregularly !..XD...somemore made that sound !.XD... CUTE !..@.@

Sometimes.. WE could not talk loud about something..
When you turn on certain situaton.. Your action, Mind, Feeling are different !
let's say. Last time I talk loud about I enjoy the single life..
I do !!. I do enjoy.. but, sometimes, I need something to cover my loneliness, especially there are four or five couples in my house..
I was like....speechless !!!!XD.. is quite funny !.. everyone has their way to maintain their love !. Sometimes, i feel stil ok and some of them i really disagree and hate it !..
For me, we still having alot of thing except love..
Yes, when you having a relationship with someone, doesnot mean you have to put all of your effort on it !..
it is meaningless !.. you know that !
And why you still do that ! My mind is full of question marks.

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This is longer post that I post in my blog..( i guess)
I am full of things to write ..Just because of lack of time.. so i think i have to stop !..

EXPECT

What I am expecting ????
Your message.. ha... I know.. u have gf...
And I don't want be a third party again... you answer me I won't be the third party...
Plus... your gf and you jz have one year anniversary... Hahaha..
After saw the post, I was felt cold... what is that feel??? I m confusing.
I just know I have to stop text u.. and u also have to stop text me again...

I know myself clearly....Easily to fall into a feeling onto someone..I know !
But I can drag myself out from you !..that's why I want to stop text you immediately !
NOW !

So, Could WE???


I was felt sad at that time.. I m non stop to scolding myself stupid or what. !
I know I should have that kind of feeling on you !...
Actually I was expecting you have same kind of feeling with me.. Just I m not dare to telling !..
So when you're asking me how was I feel when you text me in sudden way ~ I was do not how to answer your question.. So I force to replied" Nothing"~~~~~~~~

That's all for my post..

Grateful

Be grateful to those who have hurt you or harmed you, they have reinforced your determination
Be grateful to those who have deceived you, for they have depended your insight
Be grateful to those who have hit you , for they have reduced your karmic obstacles
Be grateful to those who have abandoned you, for they have tought you to be independent
Be grateful to those who have made you stumble, for they have strengthened your ability
Be grateful to those who have denounced you, for they have increase your wisdom and concentration

人在江湖, 身不由己 !

我很不明白 ! 为什么你们非得把事情给搞成这样！

好看吗？想让人知道吗？

其实我也不知道该写些什么！ 只是我看不过眼.....为什么得把事情搞成那么复杂！

当街骂人好看吗？你们不知道其实吵架也得看地方吗？

更何况你们不知道你们的行为也会影响他人吗？

就是我！也包括在内！ 

不是不体谅你们！ 你们有你们的辛苦！我知道你们的爱情是不容许瑕疵！

可是世界上没有一样是完美的！你们是知道的！

那你们是不是该去想一想你们该怎么做！

但是我猜你们并不知道你们到底错在哪里！

This is what I get in my 1st semester

NO CODE SUBJECT TITLE GRADE 1 CSC1208 1SA2 BASIC COMPUTING C+ 2 ENL1213 1SM1 ENGLISH LANGUAGE SKILLS 1 C+ 3 GNS1203 1SM1 GENERAL STUDIES B 4 MGT1207 1SA2 BUSINESS STUDIES 1 A-

I am thinking that I am put more effort on my exam !.
Seriously, In inti ~ I feel I am safety than in Help !..
Although I am worry about my computer...But I was fully confident on My business studies.
If I can't get A, I still can get B or C grade in this subject...This is because I was putting more effort on this subject. I am really study hard on this subject. I get 80 something in my test 1 which I can't believe I still can get 80 something.. However, i did well in my test 1, it does not mean I still did well in my test 2 which is 60 something only...This is a big different for me !..However, i got A- for my business ~I am lucky ~

However, in basic computer, I guess I just study what lecture give and whole notes and tutorial question. In the final I got C+ which is a great news for me.. At least I got C+, Not C-...

English ~.. I got C+.. I think this result is what I am expecting because I never think I can get high than that. The reason make me think that is I know myself very well. ! My English standard is poor !. Even I know that but I am still not really put more effort on it !. I have not idea where to improve and how to improve. I hope someone can guide and teach as well !..

In the last, I am feel great with this result..

Gather

Have a nice gathering with Help Friend which are Jill Wong, Kevin Lim and Yong Wei ..
Yet I have many friend there, but does not mean that I am really close with them..
Yet some of them I really close with, but not really much peopl attend this gathering..
Yong hao: find his sister
Dailou: I cant find my boss( yanying) so i cant go..=.=
Yanying: no idea
Jasmine: no idea too..( at least i am still ok with it )

Haiz..Everything still remain.. But the relationship, situation, emotion are change !.
yea. This is what I agree. !
Somehow, this gathering is quite happy ! with jill, kevin and yongwei !.
At least i really find some heart from them !.
Thank you guys. I love you so much !.

I know this life. !
Everything is possible !
Just trust yourself !
You can make a change for it !
Believe it !

Story 2

Yes.. it is what I believe. !
Just finish reading his girlfriend blog..
I know he loves her very much. !
How about our story ? It is a important point? No, That is not anymore !
When you decided to Break up!.. The story end ! end with bad ending. !
What for still fight him back ? I will care him more ? I will love him more?
I don't believe myself ! I won't believe i love him than myself !
I had read a novel before. there is a statement which is " you so selfish ! you have not right to love people"..
Do I agree this statement? Maybe yes? Maybe no?
I have not idea but I really know myself very well ! I am selfish !.
I love myself more than others. even my parents and my family member. I even hate my family members.
of course there is just one or two !.Not all !
But lastly, i m not agree with that statement .. Because. I should love myself only can love people ~
This is what i Believe!!

To be continue ~