Speechless

Everyone has their own life~
I know. I understand !
But sometimes is hard to stand without support ~.
especially, everyone has saying the same thing !... I m tired~
Third times i had fail my advanced english.~
If i m telling that I feel nothing. I think I m telling a lie !
But i choose to take it easy ~ relax ~ change college ~ new environment ~
Yet, it is hard !. I know ~..And i left one more chance !..
My family member asking me to take the last chance with non stop !.
Finally, i cant stand !. I feel pressure ~ i feel moody ~ i feel tired ~ i feel speechless ~

And sometimes life does not go smoothly ~i know ~
I always know that !. But hard to control my emotional. I also keep on saying life does not go smoothly..
At the final, i m speechless on this .
I don't know i will regret in the future ~.
But i know i feel pressure on advanced English ~.Afraid ~
I have not confident to take this subject again !!!!!!
that's way i choose to change college.. I know in the new uni, i might have new environment, motivation to study all the subject !.. i dislike to keep retake retake retake retake retake retake again again again again !
It made me feel unhappy and desperate ..........


 So what should i do? haiz........ it is hard to choose ~..

New year !!!! YOU ARE HERE !

Firstly, I wanna to say to you all : HAPPY NEW YEAR~~
How was the holiday, guy? is it fun? Or how was your feeling, to those who still having their class and exam?
Alright alright? no matter it is fun and suffer or unhappy ~
Relax and Have a party together ~okay?

Today is 2011 ~~... This is a brand new year for the whole world !
Yeah ~.. I hope you all can really enjoy ~okay?
And here I wanna give some words to those who fail his or her exam~
Don't worry ~.. This is part of the exam in our life ~
What we can do now is to decide what to do on next, right?
for me, i m the loser. yes, i am! But I will accept it.. !
At least i try my best !.. And right now.i decided to change college..
I know it is not worth to change college .. because i just left one subject !..

That true !. But i don't have that motivation to continue study !
I am tired ! and i m afraid !
In the new college , i think i will try all my best to do well !..
Now, I'm not only aim for pass !.. I aim for Credit !
I hope i can get it !. No.. ! I must get It !.. I'm promise myself !.. Must get at least credit !
Those words is i m telling to myself !.. In the new year, i think i should get some change !..
no matter how hard it is !.. no matter how bored it is ! I want change !
Hard change to easy ~ bored change to interesting !
This is short goal for my life !.

Heee~~ Also, I want to keep fit in a short period ~..
of course keep fit with a healthy way ~
This is long goal in my life ~..Keep beauty ~
XD

My friend ~~ My best friend ~~ My good best friend ~~ My future bf ~~
I think i never forget you all ~~XD.. seriously. i don;t have future bf ~~.
But i will try my best to find a best one lar ~~XD
My dearest friend ~. Thank you ..
You all accompany me to face the difficult ~ enjoy together with a happy time ~
ate expensive meal ~ went trip together ~ stay together ~ argue together ~ and many many..
It's meaningful ~ and memorizes ~
I'm glad that i had a sweet memories with you all ~..Without you all, I think i cant stay in a happy life ~

My family ~..My dad, My mother , My elder sister, second sister, third sister and younger brother ~.
I love you all ~~.XD
Of course you all dont know that i love you all ~>.XD
Because i never let you all know ~
My dad, i m sorry , I get a poor result in my foundation~..and waste your money ~
My mother, Sometimes i really cant stand your temper ~XD. But i know that there you are ~
others ~~.. Thank you all to accompany ~.
Share my academic together ~And play together ~ Shopping together ~ yam cha together ~
Alot alot alot ~~>< .. hope one of you .. after marry, please do not forget us ~~okay ~~

I have alot alot alot alot words to say ~..
But I think i have to stop ~..
If not, this post would be longer post in my blog ~XD
hehehe.. nice words ! i Love this post ~

迷

In your world.. I seem like invisible...But i still there , and you know that !
Friend told me... You never tell a word about me in front your girl Friend.
i m curious and surprise...is like impossible what..
Normally, Girl friend will asks her boyfriend about his ex..
And boyfriend might tell alittle bit about his ex to his girlfriend..
fuh~~~.. But you ! never tell !.. Even just a small matter also never ..!..
No !. You had answer.. Just your smile !. you just smile to everyone and answer with no word !.
I have no idea why you do so.. !
emmm... maybe in your heart.. i still exist !.. maybe you put me into your heart?? XD. ~~..
Just kidding ~// serious !.. I give up !.. But i cant stop thinking about that  !!.
i feel want to know the answer !.
CAN YOU LET ME KNOW !
....................................................................................................................................................................
Just like a secret !.. everyone asks you about your ex..
you also choose to be silent !.


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生命~也可也说是个谜！
人，到底是为什么而活呢？
为情？
为财？
还是为自己？

我也满迷惘的..
有时候真的不赞同他人的活法~
可是他人就是他人~我还是我~
其实也可那么说....
“命是我自己的，我要怎样活也不关你的事”XD

但是我还是觉得
命是上天赐给我们最最最最珍贵的礼物！
然而这份礼物最终的结果或用法还是在于我们如何去对待！
当然父母也用心又用力的去疼我们，去爱我们.
所以我觉得命啊~还是要去珍惜，去发挥到我们无法相信的地步！
那我觉得，这样才对的去上天和父母！

所以朋友们， 一定要珍惜哦~
别到了临死前才会学会珍惜或觉得遗憾！

You

YOU

I don't know your name.

I don't know about you.

I don't know how old are you. [just know you bigger than me]

You are my relative [far cousin]

But i don't know you.

but I feel want know more about you.

I feel want have more fun with you.

I feel want meet you more. [if can.. wherever]

You are not handsome. 

But for me, you are good-looking.

You are not thin.

But for me, you are okay.

You are funny and joyful.

Unlucky, you left early ! i wish you can send me back to my car.heee..

But you have asthma...Take care, okay?....

I hope you have can a healthy body & don't smoke ..

okay? 

Coming

The date is coming !!!..
Final exam.. !! wuhohoh..
seriously, what am i doing now?? reading comic.?
working? relaxing.? what else?
The action i have been done is not related on study..?
How could i survive on this final exam?

For malaysian studies.. I can say that, i can let it to fail
BUT
for the Advanced eng...... haiz..please, let me pass it !
i just wan pass this subject only.. how difficult ya?? haiz
Alot of friend said that.. : this is third times u take, so easy get pass de. dont worry~ you can de!"
You know those words can come out easily, but it hard to complete those task !
So, please god !.. Let me pass ok??
I wish that i can pass and step up degree on next year. !
fully hope that. !
*praying*

The word of " LOVE"

Guys, How do you think about love?
Somebody said that " love is blind" Is it??
I m sosososos curious? Why does love is blind?
I don't think so..
Why say it so? Your mind can be clear.. When you falling in love..
What the fuck is that..
" You must sacrifice
" You must pay
" You must believe
" You must do it
.. puhh.... What the hell is that.. I don't agree..
Yea.... Sacrifice, I know. But it must depends on what situation.
Pay? What Should You pay for your love? Time? Body? heart?What else?
Believe? there is true love in the world, but there isn't forever love in the world..
Do it? what should you do??
Try to be rational !

Never ever ever ever ever believe love..
In my world.. ~~ hee heee....
(actuallly not so negative) XD
But sometimes.. The words from boy are really hard to believe.
...sometimes they might forget or what..
...sometimes they already promise that but they really break the promise.
Such as i will love you forever.. I never love other girl, except you..=.=
gishh... those sentences were out from their mouth.. But they never ever ever ever do it.

Actually sometimes i choose not to believe.. Because it is hurt..
I must know that where i am ..
The place i am.. is in the reality world.
materializes materializes.. !!!!
It is materializes..
The word of love cant feed your hunger.. Cant feed your desire..?
Who can feed by love this word..?????
Seriously, no one can feed by this word..
This is just the part of the life...
Yes.. Without love, the world does not beautiful and pretty..
Sometimes. i force to agree.. sometimes love can be a medicine.. to recover someone pain..
After pain, i think they will gain somethings.. and with love they will be brave to step out.~

In my world, " Love " does not mean useless..
Just sometimes.... dont over confident on Love..
Just keep it safe for yourself..
Just to protect yourself...
Just to keep happy..

That's all you can do actually...
I know i want love.. but i not really believe on love..
Love is " Want" not "Need' .. Marketing ~~..hehehe...
Just especially for me !!~~..wohuhuhuhu..
yea, alright..  I know.. i not want love now !.. I just target for more new friends ~~
Friend is better than couple... Not sometimes... It's real..
Even thought friends might betray you.. But that not hurt as your girlfren or boyfren betray you !
Friend... I lost you !. But i still have alot friends.
But girlfren or boyfrien... Just have one..lost one.. then the person wont back anymore..
~~~...........
so.. Friends is more important than couple ~~. wuhohohohoho..~~

似乎

...........................
好累啊...............
好想歇一歇......

我以为这学期会是最懒的一个学期
当然....这是我还没开始开工....的想法
一旦我开工后......就觉得有点赶...
我的时间没了......
不过还好我还可以拿钱......
哈哈哈哈哈.....所以心里还有点安慰~~

刚开始时却还好......没什么感觉.....
但是时间一久....什么累啊，闷啊，或什么都来了....
有时候真的拼了老命却还得不到！......纳闷啊 !!!
人生就本应该这样子.....这是什么老话啊......
可是这句话的却是真的...还真的有点不服气啊!!!!!
(心里真的很矛盾啊).....锤 / 槌心啊!!!!!>.<''''''

老了，累了，闷了，想了，乐了，那你呢?
关系也断了~.......这就是我们的结果.....
你问我这   “就是你的决定”.....
我也只能回答你   “就算我会后悔，我也会把它给吃下去”
哈哈哈哈阿訇.......真的太爱我的回答~!!!!!
好酷哦　～～～～～～
ｈｅｅｅｈｅｅｅｅ

说什么都是我的决定!....我懂你会尊敬我.....
也谢谢你的尊敬~.....也因为你尊敬......我才会选择去坦白...
我也不希望我的坦白会伤害到你....可是我明白我的话却让你难堪....
没什么....人有很多种....你我确实是不同人.....
所以我也不便在多说些什么.....
所以我们也完了~~~~
自私并没有错....但是你的自私却伤害到人..
那你就错得很离谱.....

当我知道　“被绑架的受害者，却爱上了犯罪者”
这句话我无比的赞同啊～......
有时候......真的避免不了.....明明知道他 / 她就是毒药......
却还一头栽下去.....不知该说笨呢还是什么......
要完全的抽离可以吗？可能吗？