Speechless

Everyone has their own life~
I know. I understand !
But sometimes is hard to stand without support ~.
especially, everyone has saying the same thing !... I m tired~
Third times i had fail my advanced english.~
If i m telling that I feel nothing. I think I m telling a lie !
But i choose to take it easy ~ relax ~ change college ~ new environment ~
Yet, it is hard !. I know ~..And i left one more chance !..
My family member asking me to take the last chance with non stop !.
Finally, i cant stand !. I feel pressure ~ i feel moody ~ i feel tired ~ i feel speechless ~

And sometimes life does not go smoothly ~i know ~
I always know that !. But hard to control my emotional. I also keep on saying life does not go smoothly..
At the final, i m speechless on this .
I don't know i will regret in the future ~.
But i know i feel pressure on advanced English ~.Afraid ~
I have not confident to take this subject again !!!!!!
that's way i choose to change college.. I know in the new uni, i might have new environment, motivation to study all the subject !.. i dislike to keep retake retake retake retake retake retake again again again again !
It made me feel unhappy and desperate ..........


 So what should i do? haiz........ it is hard to choose ~..

New year !!!! YOU ARE HERE !

Firstly, I wanna to say to you all : HAPPY NEW YEAR~~
How was the holiday, guy? is it fun? Or how was your feeling, to those who still having their class and exam?
Alright alright? no matter it is fun and suffer or unhappy ~
Relax and Have a party together ~okay?

Today is 2011 ~~... This is a brand new year for the whole world !
Yeah ~.. I hope you all can really enjoy ~okay?
And here I wanna give some words to those who fail his or her exam~
Don't worry ~.. This is part of the exam in our life ~
What we can do now is to decide what to do on next, right?
for me, i m the loser. yes, i am! But I will accept it.. !
At least i try my best !.. And right now.i decided to change college..
I know it is not worth to change college .. because i just left one subject !..

That true !. But i don't have that motivation to continue study !
I am tired ! and i m afraid !
In the new college , i think i will try all my best to do well !..
Now, I'm not only aim for pass !.. I aim for Credit !
I hope i can get it !. No.. ! I must get It !.. I'm promise myself !.. Must get at least credit !
Those words is i m telling to myself !.. In the new year, i think i should get some change !..
no matter how hard it is !.. no matter how bored it is ! I want change !
Hard change to easy ~ bored change to interesting !
This is short goal for my life !.

Heee~~ Also, I want to keep fit in a short period ~..
of course keep fit with a healthy way ~
This is long goal in my life ~..Keep beauty ~
XD

My friend ~~ My best friend ~~ My good best friend ~~ My future bf ~~
I think i never forget you all ~~XD.. seriously. i don;t have future bf ~~.
But i will try my best to find a best one lar ~~XD
My dearest friend ~. Thank you ..
You all accompany me to face the difficult ~ enjoy together with a happy time ~
ate expensive meal ~ went trip together ~ stay together ~ argue together ~ and many many..
It's meaningful ~ and memorizes ~
I'm glad that i had a sweet memories with you all ~..Without you all, I think i cant stay in a happy life ~

My family ~..My dad, My mother , My elder sister, second sister, third sister and younger brother ~.
I love you all ~~.XD
Of course you all dont know that i love you all ~>.XD
Because i never let you all know ~
My dad, i m sorry , I get a poor result in my foundation~..and waste your money ~
My mother, Sometimes i really cant stand your temper ~XD. But i know that there you are ~
others ~~.. Thank you all to accompany ~.
Share my academic together ~And play together ~ Shopping together ~ yam cha together ~
Alot alot alot ~~>< .. hope one of you .. after marry, please do not forget us ~~okay ~~

I have alot alot alot alot words to say ~..
But I think i have to stop ~..
If not, this post would be longer post in my blog ~XD
hehehe.. nice words ! i Love this post ~