迷

In your world.. I seem like invisible...But i still there , and you know that !
Friend told me... You never tell a word about me in front your girl Friend.
i m curious and surprise...is like impossible what..
Normally, Girl friend will asks her boyfriend about his ex..
And boyfriend might tell alittle bit about his ex to his girlfriend..
fuh~~~.. But you ! never tell !.. Even just a small matter also never ..!..
No !. You had answer.. Just your smile !. you just smile to everyone and answer with no word !.
I have no idea why you do so.. !
emmm... maybe in your heart.. i still exist !.. maybe you put me into your heart?? XD. ~~..
Just kidding ~// serious !.. I give up !.. But i cant stop thinking about that  !!.
i feel want to know the answer !.
CAN YOU LET ME KNOW !
....................................................................................................................................................................
Just like a secret !.. everyone asks you about your ex..
you also choose to be silent !.


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生命~也可也说是个谜！
人，到底是为什么而活呢？
为情？
为财？
还是为自己？

我也满迷惘的..
有时候真的不赞同他人的活法~
可是他人就是他人~我还是我~
其实也可那么说....
“命是我自己的，我要怎样活也不关你的事”XD

但是我还是觉得
命是上天赐给我们最最最最珍贵的礼物！
然而这份礼物最终的结果或用法还是在于我们如何去对待！
当然父母也用心又用力的去疼我们，去爱我们.
所以我觉得命啊~还是要去珍惜，去发挥到我们无法相信的地步！
那我觉得，这样才对的去上天和父母！

所以朋友们， 一定要珍惜哦~
别到了临死前才会学会珍惜或觉得遗憾！

You

YOU

I don't know your name.

I don't know about you.

I don't know how old are you. [just know you bigger than me]

You are my relative [far cousin]

But i don't know you.

but I feel want know more about you.

I feel want have more fun with you.

I feel want meet you more. [if can.. wherever]

You are not handsome. 

But for me, you are good-looking.

You are not thin.

But for me, you are okay.

You are funny and joyful.

Unlucky, you left early ! i wish you can send me back to my car.heee..

But you have asthma...Take care, okay?....

I hope you have can a healthy body & don't smoke ..

okay? 

Coming

The date is coming !!!..
Final exam.. !! wuhohoh..
seriously, what am i doing now?? reading comic.?
working? relaxing.? what else?
The action i have been done is not related on study..?
How could i survive on this final exam?

For malaysian studies.. I can say that, i can let it to fail
BUT
for the Advanced eng...... haiz..please, let me pass it !
i just wan pass this subject only.. how difficult ya?? haiz
Alot of friend said that.. : this is third times u take, so easy get pass de. dont worry~ you can de!"
You know those words can come out easily, but it hard to complete those task !
So, please god !.. Let me pass ok??
I wish that i can pass and step up degree on next year. !
fully hope that. !
*praying*

The word of " LOVE"

Guys, How do you think about love?
Somebody said that " love is blind" Is it??
I m sosososos curious? Why does love is blind?
I don't think so..
Why say it so? Your mind can be clear.. When you falling in love..
What the fuck is that..
" You must sacrifice
" You must pay
" You must believe
" You must do it
.. puhh.... What the hell is that.. I don't agree..
Yea.... Sacrifice, I know. But it must depends on what situation.
Pay? What Should You pay for your love? Time? Body? heart?What else?
Believe? there is true love in the world, but there isn't forever love in the world..
Do it? what should you do??
Try to be rational !

Never ever ever ever ever believe love..
In my world.. ~~ hee heee....
(actuallly not so negative) XD
But sometimes.. The words from boy are really hard to believe.
...sometimes they might forget or what..
...sometimes they already promise that but they really break the promise.
Such as i will love you forever.. I never love other girl, except you..=.=
gishh... those sentences were out from their mouth.. But they never ever ever ever do it.

Actually sometimes i choose not to believe.. Because it is hurt..
I must know that where i am ..
The place i am.. is in the reality world.
materializes materializes.. !!!!
It is materializes..
The word of love cant feed your hunger.. Cant feed your desire..?
Who can feed by love this word..?????
Seriously, no one can feed by this word..
This is just the part of the life...
Yes.. Without love, the world does not beautiful and pretty..
Sometimes. i force to agree.. sometimes love can be a medicine.. to recover someone pain..
After pain, i think they will gain somethings.. and with love they will be brave to step out.~

In my world, " Love " does not mean useless..
Just sometimes.... dont over confident on Love..
Just keep it safe for yourself..
Just to protect yourself...
Just to keep happy..

That's all you can do actually...
I know i want love.. but i not really believe on love..
Love is " Want" not "Need' .. Marketing ~~..hehehe...
Just especially for me !!~~..wohuhuhuhu..
yea, alright..  I know.. i not want love now !.. I just target for more new friends ~~
Friend is better than couple... Not sometimes... It's real..
Even thought friends might betray you.. But that not hurt as your girlfren or boyfren betray you !
Friend... I lost you !. But i still have alot friends.
But girlfren or boyfrien... Just have one..lost one.. then the person wont back anymore..
~~~...........
so.. Friends is more important than couple ~~. wuhohohohoho..~~

似乎

...........................
好累啊...............
好想歇一歇......

我以为这学期会是最懒的一个学期
当然....这是我还没开始开工....的想法
一旦我开工后......就觉得有点赶...
我的时间没了......
不过还好我还可以拿钱......
哈哈哈哈哈.....所以心里还有点安慰~~

刚开始时却还好......没什么感觉.....
但是时间一久....什么累啊，闷啊，或什么都来了....
有时候真的拼了老命却还得不到！......纳闷啊 !!!
人生就本应该这样子.....这是什么老话啊......
可是这句话的却是真的...还真的有点不服气啊!!!!!
(心里真的很矛盾啊).....锤 / 槌心啊!!!!!>.<''''''

老了，累了，闷了，想了，乐了，那你呢?
关系也断了~.......这就是我们的结果.....
你问我这   “就是你的决定”.....
我也只能回答你   “就算我会后悔，我也会把它给吃下去”
哈哈哈哈阿訇.......真的太爱我的回答~!!!!!
好酷哦　～～～～～～
ｈｅｅｅｈｅｅｅｅ

说什么都是我的决定!....我懂你会尊敬我.....
也谢谢你的尊敬~.....也因为你尊敬......我才会选择去坦白...
我也不希望我的坦白会伤害到你....可是我明白我的话却让你难堪....
没什么....人有很多种....你我确实是不同人.....
所以我也不便在多说些什么.....
所以我们也完了~~~~
自私并没有错....但是你的自私却伤害到人..
那你就错得很离谱.....

当我知道　“被绑架的受害者，却爱上了犯罪者”
这句话我无比的赞同啊～......
有时候......真的避免不了.....明明知道他 / 她就是毒药......
却还一头栽下去.....不知该说笨呢还是什么......
要完全的抽离可以吗？可能吗？

Real World

X: Back to real world, girl .......

Y: Yea.. I'm back, no worries...

X: that's great..

Y: .............

Yes, I'm Back..... !

Back from animation world..

for me.. 

last week was a wonderful week.. although it was not good luck week, but i was enjoy with animation...

finally, completed three different types of animation in a week... and i was feel any tiring on that, somemore i was en-joyful with these moment.... 

棋灵王, 下一站巨星, 好像告诉你
I can keep watching until midnight without feel tiring.. 
I have a experience.. I watched until 4 am, only rest for my day.. 
i was sososo satisfy... nothing better than this. 


Also,I have learn alot of things from these animation.. 

They teach how to face the conflict..even though i m afraid... 

With dream, i need to sacrifice something... 

I wont let my destiny to control my life, and let god to help me decided..

I want to make all choice byself.. with no regret !

They teach me .. do not let it go ..... if really care about it, then i need to try my best to get it.. What i want.. what i wish !
Only I will get what I want in my life...


And I almost forget i still having term paper, which is need to summit on next wednesday..
Gosh.. Actually term paper need to summit on next friday, but next frieday is public holiday.
So all classes need to summit term paper early..
haiz.. and i just did 200 ++ words only.. how do i survive fro this.. loxl..
Stop animation? Stop Facebook? Stop chatting? Stop resting?
If i really can do these.. then i m not Yap Li Ying anymore~
XD


SO.. I will half doing assignment, Facebook, Chatting, and resting ~..
hahahaha.... If not i will be dead. Cz it is too boring, if without these...
people always goes this way.. 
wont action if there have too much time.... they only take action on last minutes.

Bad Habit ya ~!!!
So, try to delete that habit. !.. If not.. i will die very soon.. T.T..
bye bye, my friends~

人生就是戏..

哇~

看看看看看看看看

Wuoohohohohohohhohoh……………

这一星期以来, 我看了三部戏…………………..

两部电影和一部动画

“童眼”

是一部鬼戏~….主演者有杨丞琳,余文乐等等…….

剧情是说.. 有两对情侣,哥哥和妹妹一同去泰国游玩~

可是还景不常, 泰国发生暴乱~ 他们只好来离开泰国….

真的是他们太倒霉还是什么..机场却关闭了…..=.=..

他们也能去暂住旅馆~……….. 这一切切的谜和事物都从这旅馆开始~

接下来的剧情嘛,,,, 你们就慢慢的去电影院观看吧….XD

虽然不是很恐怖,可是当中有几个部分我也忍不住用我的外套的帽子去遮我的眼…

哈哈啊哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 !!!

果然，人还是现实的… !

“RED”

Retired Extremely  Dangerous…..

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈阿哈哈阿啊哈哈哈哈哈阿…..

这套戏真的是太好了~…. 也太好笑了吧~!!!!!!!!

完全败给这套戏啊……….. 全部主角都是中年人哦~他们在戏中是个退休人士~

可是有些部分真的真的真的太太太太太太帅了!!!!!!!!!!!

真的是超帅的说欸~~~~~~XD

有点太白痴…=.=

不过，紧张的部分也蛮都多~

当然最帅的就是Bruce Wills…..有点迷上他~~..hohohoho

“下一站巨星”

是动画哦~ 真的真的超好看的说欸~=.=

别理我耍白痴 !!!...真的很好看….很好笑~….

常常被她无厘头的想法，做法或什么的搞到无言啊~~ ~

可是她的笑点真的有点顶不顺……… 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈阿哈哈哈哈哈哈啊哈哈哈哈

当然….当中在戏中，我看到了她的毅力….努力…

所以身为女孩的我们~….一定要懂得为自己打算，不过还认知心不可有，但防人之心不可无….

也有一部，”棋灵王”

也正在进行当中~….还剩三四集就看完了…

这一部…也是我最喜欢的…..虽然我不懂得围棋…

可是我知道从围棋里可以看到人的人为.....X.X…..

这也是让我学的更多的一部动画~…..

“面对恐惧, 完全不逃避……反而更勇敢的去面对~”

露骨的话

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊…………………

输了那么多次~!!!!!!!

还是竖在同一关!!!

郁闷啊~~~~~~~~

……………………………………………………..

Haiz…. 还是忘不了他~

那天一醒来,,,,,我发觉

梦里的主角竟然是他~

梦里的我们… 原本分手的我们,竟然在回一起~~

我们回到以往的日子里~…一起吃饭, 躺在你的胸膛~

温暖~………….. 一切都是那么美好的~

(小露骨~~) XD

可是一通电话铃声响起…

这一切切都回到现实中…

我才发觉原来我发了个美梦~~ (笑笑)

可是再想一想原来我所发的是个噩梦 ! !

这一切切都回不了头~~~ 从我们分手的那一天开始 !!!!

不能再去想了….叶厤迎 !

快快想起你对你自己的承诺 !

忘了吗 ?

这可能对自己的最后的任性  !!!!!  好不好 !!!!

最后一次了!!!!!

没关系~ 因为我可能已找回我自己了~。。。

可喜可贺啊~~~~~~~

眠

对...... 就是失眠!

却不知原因为何我会失眠~....
其实对我来说, 这件事很困扰....
完全不知自己在想些什么...
可是我很清楚...我快找回我自己了~....
只是我还很不舍得!... 不舍得放你走.....

第一天,失眠的我....连工都不想做..干脆跟老板请了假...
一上完课,,,, 就驾着我那满一周年的 Suzuki Swift 回家~
果然失眠的后遗症那么大....我竟然只能驾到40 - 60 km 而已
=.=....太佩服我自己了~
可是一回到家....=.=.. 我还很精神的去买burger set来吃。。。....
拖一拖,,,, 拖到4点了...才去补眠~ 但是却只能睡一小时~。。....
haiz...........无言啊 ！！！！

到了第二晚~ ~....
猜一猜我睡的下去吗？
答案就是还是不能。。。。　＝＝。。。
那睡不着～那我就换一换地点睡...
第一....客厅 !!!..ＸＤ哈哈哈～
还是睡不着啊～～～～
第二...客房 !!! ..ＸＤ哈哈哈～
刚开始的其实是睡不着....可是过了一段的时间....
我　我　我　我　我　我　我　我　我　我
终于睡着了～！！

咚咚咚咚咚咚　～～～～～
睡着了　ＸＤＸＤＸＤＸＤ

过了一天的我～
戴着新的隐性眼镜的我..感觉到新的隐性眼镜好像不是我的度数～
看任何东西都很模糊......可是却没办法～。。。
因为我正在上班～！！！。。。　等一会儿，还需要驾车回去！。。
应该没问题～。。我都可以从学院驾着车去上班....虽然是有点模糊～！。。
可是还不止于盲了～。。
可是驾着车还是很想睡！！

＝＝

原则

人不犯我,我不犯人....
这一向都是我的原则....
但是现在对我来说...可能对某某人我可以不顾我的原则....
为何呢?

我要求并不多...只要你可以帮一些些小忙就足够了
但是你并不帮忙反而还提出那么幼稚,没脑的话.........
所以我也不必再去顾虑你那"小小的感受"
也无言以对................... !!!!!!!!!

虽然你一开始已侵犯我的地盘!
我也退让了,可是却很不甘!!!!!
除了不甘，还是不甘!!!

到了最后.....我也静静的看你如何去活在你世界!!!!
=.=/////// 所以对这一种人... 完全不需去理我有什么原则...
面对你这一种人，原则再也不重要！

字

话

总是不能说的太满! 你对我说我会XX你

哈哈….. 其实我并不知道你说的一番的意思?

身为本身的我…..

其实很迷惘 ~

当我静静时….. 我曾思考过…..我是否太冲动….我是否太傻…

而然我们已经开始了~!...( 别误会)

我不保证你或我会有后悔的一天….也不保证双方是否可以不可以按照约定去尽情的去玩呢?

因为我们始终还是人….我们人类只拥有一颗心。

有血有泪的我们到底可以到几时? 拥有一些他们所没有的 ~

我也只能静静的去接受我现在所有的一切

说了这么多……还发觉我呢有点无聊…..

拥有一切的我其实应该感到满足, 但是我却不感到满足….

我的欲望还变本加厉的要更多

欲望还真害人不浅 ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Selfish

Everyone is selfish ~
no one can avoid this word...

Everyone just care what they really feel
Never care how other feel

I have some question in my mind...

is it spend a little time for old friend is a big deal ?
is it spend a little time for parents is a big deal ?
is it spend a little effort for family is a big deal ?
is it spend a little time for caring for other is a big deal ?

Okay, you said invite you to yam cha not a big deal...
because you still drive alone from klang to banting...
and spend time to yam cha with us...
Yea.... because WE ARE NOT MANDY ! so yam cha with old friend is not a big deal ... ha ~
Okay.. I think i have no point to invite you anymore !!
You hang over every ounce it.... Well.. you said no one can understand how you feel ?
You not really let us to know you well ..  you keep acting !.  until you have girlfriend...
until i only know ... our friendship is so weak !. ha..finally... we are over ! we are not important at all !
You are selfish !! you know why i called for yam cha ? because i treat you as my best friend ?
That why I keep asked maw huei to asked you to come together ..

And
you told me " let say, you stand on my situation... what will you do?"
please think about it..I were not you !  if i were you, i would think about parents first.. !
Not your boyfriend's mother.. ha..
yea.. you having your honey month now, but your act is really over !
Over until i cant accept ~!.... never mind.. as long as you happy..
I m lazy to care .. i m lazy to giving advice.. that's all i can give !...
Just do you think are right !... just do it !!!

And
you really don't have brain..You are selfish than others !!!!
I have nothing to say on you.. You are selfish, useless, irresponsible..... etc ~

Of course i m get involve !..
yea.. i m selfish !... if not, i think i will not having this such crazy and mad idea ...
hahaha. but thank you for playing with me ~..XD
But i will back to the place where i belong and where your love has always been enough for me ! XD

Crazy

I know... Today..... I m Crazy...
I don't know what thing cause me to think that way..

AND 

Having a crazy idea ! XD

Yeah.. You are the only one to get involve ~

hahahaahhaa

Maybe, you let me having this such crazy idea ~

GOSH !~.... serious !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im tired to see it !!!

freaking freaking freaking freaking !!!!!

Sometimes.. i m envy you !..... i m jealous you !.....

But now I really jealous you !..

I hope i m inside the photo..
I replace you

ish.!! what i need to do is .. just stop invite your blog !
or doing something !. maybe it isn't work..

But i would like try ~......

try until i know it is impossible....until that moment.. i know i m loser...

Maybe until that moment.. i know i should stop it..

not more trying.. not more hope again.. just to face the fact ...

just let it go ~............

i think i m tired ~ work for 9 hours. 

just eat four breads to settle 2 meals.

maybe for normal days.. that is not enough for me.. 

but only for today.. tat's work ~

and get to drink the herbal tea that is really really really bitter.... it's almost make me feel to vomit out ~

It's crazy...

It's mad...

It's abnormal...

It's ridiculous...

It's foolish...

It's irregular...

Working ~

yes !!!!..Yesterday is my first day working ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have not idea what to wear.. i was scare need black pants, black shoes and uniform ~
But when i reached there..

My boss asked  me a first question that was " why you didnot birng your laptop?"
I STONED !
Not working meh? as a part timer.. as a promoter..
Can i bring my laptop to my working place??
The answer was very obvious... CAN NOT !
But why my boss still asked me that..
after that, i felt funny and curious... "why i need to bring laptop"
The answer i got is " cz to bored.. you can surf net ..."
I stoned ~!
hahahahahahahaha.. yea. it is funny ~~
after that, my boss gave me some magazine and ask me read it.~ok. ~~~~
since i have nothing to do, i read ~

Ok...... I didnot have any sell on yesterday...but.........
wuhuhuhuh today.... i got sales.. but just 2 pieces .. the result is quite low lor..><.....

Yesterday i really just alone ~.. what i did where i went.. just alone.. even waiting my sister i was still alone !
Fine... !!! JUST stand it !!!!
Stand stand ~~~
Gambateh  !!!! i believe that i can make higher sales in my future ~!!

Recall Back

bored bored ~ bored bored ~ bored bored ~
except bored.. im still feel bored ~//=.=...( please don't kill me)

Yea yea yea yea.. what I can do is...
Just sit down and think what i can do ...

think think think think think think think think think think think think think think think think
think think think think think think think think think think think think think think think think

But the result is... I m not thinking what i can do !!!!!
I m thinking the past ~!!!
In my world.... Past mean Past d... no more in my recently world ~

My first boyfriend ~~(consider as first)
emmmm.. even though we had bad ending between us, but i still appreciate it..
I m glad that you become more mature ~..
and hope you can understand what i felt last time ~..
the time we were together 2 years....
and really make me feel jealous and envy on that girl...that truth.!!! is a fact !!!
she is luckily girl ~ He is a good guy.. please take care of him ~...
Both of u.. stay happy ya ~~~ ^^

then

My second boyfriend. ~~
I think my uni friends knew who is my second boyfriend was....lolx..
so that I not need to mention it again  .. or what..
and unluckily, we just together for 3 months more ~><..
I not really care how long we together ~
Im just care about the result.. after finished relationship..
I know that I gained alot experience .... many many different type of situation ~
Im so happy i still survive it..
Everytime, every moment, every second just like a war..that is because of his ex-gf ~ SALLY ~(highlight  her name)..
Thank sally so much... you gave me a special moment, when u told me you had his secret and didn't wish that i get involve apart..
that moment.. really feel like......We were acting.. acting like how ex-gf destroy the relationship.. and so on so on... thank a lot... without you.. my life wont be so awesome ~.^^.. it's truth ~

Ha........... seriously, my life was not really bad..
compare with some south africa's citizen.. i m a luckily girl ~~
at least i have food anytime, have shelf, family, relationship, money and so on...
I have a lot things ~.... just those part of my life have some negative impact.
But I believe that.. i can face it with confident...even though my result not so good.. and i m trying to improve my english now ~~~.. thats why I m using English to write those things in  my blog ~~.

So guys, please help me ~~!!.. sometime I know my temper is quite big and "smelly" ( translate to chinese) XD
But I wil try to change it ~.!!! and i know.. i had change alot from last time till now ~!!..
Im glad with it ~!!..i appreciate it!!!

God, I love you ~.. thank for giving me a chance to live in this world ~!!!
so that,i can enjoy my life.. I wish i dont have so much regretful thing in the rest of my life ~!..
I love you guys ~!

Ps: i know i m out of topic d ~!><

幕~

你可爱的笑面还存在我的脑里....
说实话...你很可爱...
再回想起来...我还是会觉得好笑..
并不是在朝笑...只是你的笑面让我觉得有点温馨....^^

希望那一幕我会永远记得~......

捕抓

在深夜里....躺在床上的我...
尝试去让我的双手去捕抓某某东西....
但是那东西我能捕抓的是空气...

空荡荡的手.....就如空荡荡的心...
心里也慢慢感到空虚....
尝试用任何事来填补心中空虚感...
可能我找不到安全感.....

"安全感" 这三个字在我的字典里
是鲜少出现的....
这三个字....每一个人都希望可以拥有..
常常说要的只不过是安全感...可以是却难以拥有..
可是当你们说出这些时...有没有想过.....
你能不能给于安全感呢??

我也尝试去放松的去依赖你..
可是当我想去依赖你时....你却不知所终...你给的安全感也没了..你给的依赖也完了...
捕抓去捕抓来....
却捕抓了空气....

在我深思熟虑.....决定了放手....
不再去捕抓了....
慢慢的去挣开手.....让你慢慢的停留在我手中....

走与留....自个去想~......

家----一支破碎的家

家, 永远是游子的避风港....
回家的感觉永远是最棒的...

这两句对以前的我来说...
的的确确无疑的认同....
只是对现在的我来说....我只能说我无言...

场面很僵，气氛很诡异....
动不动就只能用眼睛去杀人....（可是就是杀不了人）
哈。（嘲笑着）
可能问题早已出现.....只是那房间是个导火线...

大姐已不再尊重。原因? 我就不说...毕竟是家丑....

我姐问我....“为何不放开？你明明知道最后辛苦的是你自己。
我知道，我也很辛苦......我也很想看开....
我就是看开不了.....
为什么我看不开？？？

到了今天，我才知道为什么我看不开...

我看不开就是因为我在乎 !!!!!!!!!

如果不重要....我需要那么辛苦吗？？

外界的东西虽然重要........可是就是不比家重要....
所以我才可以轻易的忘记，看开，放弃，不在乎。
现在我才知道.....我重视它....它却不重视我 !!!!!!!
待下去.....我会死 !!!!!
累 !!!!!!

How About .....

Everything in this world is not  really follow rules go..
even people...is the same..

How about a guy younger than the girl saying that..
" I felt different feeling toward you.?"
" I felt elder than me.. it's better"
the relationship between him and me are vague..
Seriously, i have not feeling toward him..
the time i started to sms with him is from the time we met at park..
That time i just break with chuck.. The things i wanted to just a friend to chat.
He is the person who always chat with me..I'm glad that i know him and get know about him well..

AND

How about a question come to you? " Will you go? if your ex-gf or ex-bf ask for a sleep together?"
Will you go or reject it?
I think mostly people will answer ." of course not going.."
Actually, the real answer is only in your heart?
tell the true?
you don't want go? or you wan go but scare the answer you are telling, people will afraid or surprise?

AND

How About your family are kinda like traditional?
Will Boy is more important than girl ~!?
WHAT THE FROG !!!!!
I have nothing to say about this.. serisouly speechless...

Last, but not least

How about your ex-bf or ex-gf is playing a relationship is vague with you??
sound funny, right?
especially for me.. this is the time i break with bf, then i still can friend with them immediately..
HA.... funny..

The things i said above really funny, right?
And i have speechless on it..
Seriously, helpless and hopeless on those situation..
ha... what i can do is.. just face it...
as you said, everyone live in this house.. the expense you pay ..
Ok, fine. let me pay for you ~!...!!!

latest ME

Recently, I made a big different style for myself..

At first, i rebonded my hair..

also, change new hair style.. the hair style let me look like a kid.- a cute kid..XD

because of this, my face look like more chubby than last time. The most important is I cant accept lor !

but after a few days, i started to get use to it to my new hair style.. especially, after i washed my hair after two days more. My hair look so nice until i cant believe it..

This is my new hair style bahxx... look nice?? heheh...
actually i quite surprise and love this hair style.. XD

From the picture.... Can see that i was wearing NEW GLASSES !!!

Muahahaha.. how was it?? is it ok? or weird? or like a nerd?

seriously, the new glasses and new hair style are quite suit. ;p~XD

hahaha... to sum up...I love this hair ~ New glasses ~ hahahahaha..

nice one !!!

Yea, not yet finish ~

My new HANDPHONE ~that is HTC ARIA !

muhhohohohoho

nice handphone for my currently life..hahaha...

Touchscreen hp ~ 

before this... i was used Nokia 6610... All full key pad ~

suddenly change to touch screen... really cant get use to it..

But finally ~..... after two days.. I can use this phone smoothly ~

hahaha... of course not really like a pro techncal ~

I still need a lot of time to get use to it.. and make sure that i can use this phone as a part of myself ~

hahahahaha

Clothes... 

how about the clothes.~~

hahaha... because I brought too many clothes.. so that, i could not take all of the clothes...

the clothes i wore recently is new de ~

hehehe

With those things ~~~

I can get a new life..muhohohohoho...

Really awesome ~!

I had make a big change in my life ~

And I found a turning point !~

I'm glad it !~

FAIL

Yea... I failed  !!!
Advanced English... dead dead ~
You all Passed ~! FAIL just for me ~~.. haiz..
Bored..
Really bored for HELP & English ~

I really speechless !!!
What can I do ~
The thing I can do is.. Just shut my mouth and continue study..
no matter how shame it is.. no matter how tough it is !!!!
no matter how tired i feel... no matter how bored i feel !!

I will just stand for it.. and hard working for it !!!
Good luck ya !!!!! FOR My dearest myself !!!!!
YAP SIEW HONG / YE LI YING !!!!!
You can de.!!!

没力气的我

今晚的我好想哭....
但哭不出...尝试去把快流下来的眼泪给挤出来...
但眼泪却收的快...让我无法流下来...

我也对这个家没了热盛.....
剩下也只是冷冷淡淡的心...

没了就是没了
再也无法去禰补..

过也过了...
能的只有去接受...
接受一个不想去接受...不想去应酬... 不想再去顾虑....

EMO+ing

Seriously, i don't like being an emo person.

But i felt emo again.. haiz.. 

I m wondering...Why i am so easy to feel emo?

I have no idea ~

Maybe because of you?

Or maybe because of your words?

Or maybe because of my family?

Or maybe because of i can't get what i wan?

Or maybe because of I m alone now?

Last night, i felt lonely and i slept together with my two sister.

Three people slept together on the queen size bed ~

can u imagine how small and suffer we had? XD

I keep disturb my sister and tried to be have fun with her..

I wish i can cover my feeling by using this way ~.

It's work ~ until my brother switch on the light..

I woke up sudden, and felt unsecured sudden~

I moved to my room and slept after that..

That was moment.. my brain was blank !

It's blank !!

I tried several way to made myself to sleep again.. but failed ~

i was tired ~! finally I can sleep !

woke up at 10 somthing ~!.(usual time)

My life ~ is it so complicated?

I m confuse ~

I wish i can have a simple life.. Without you 

yea.. it's can.... i know i can do it ~..

Irresponsible !

you are irresponsible..
WTF !

As a son, you know what you need to do !
BUT..... You act like dont know everything. !
WTH you doing..
you this bastard  ! !

If parents let their room to you !
If you think feel good !
If you feel not shame enough !
If you think you are deserve it ! YOU JUST TAKE IT !

called you pay the bills...What you do and said????
YOU SAID :" HOW ABOUT MOTHER? AH LING? AH HUI? AH WEI? AH HONG? AH KIAN?
you are sososo funny. childish, and selfish. !!
yea.. Traditionally, elder sister and I should move out from that room for you !

But your characteristic and personality made us against it !!
What for we move out for you. !
You beat everyone of us ! For sure except parents.
You hang over every ounce !

缘分

去了趟kukup

原来开心这两个字离我不远…..

开心与不开心只是在一念之间

只要放开心去玩，去认识…

你的世界也不会小到哪里去

说实话，我们这一帮人…

真的是不玩不相识….只是玩了一晚….

我们却开始认识对方…..

这就是我们的缘分……作为朋友的缘分….

一场仗争的开始

笨蛋老大的炸胡

玩完的臭与丑样

醉醒的第二天的早上

临走前的大合照

有时成为朋友的缘分好过成为情侣的缘分

虽然在空闲的时候会想一想他…

无可否认…回忆是甜蜜的…

可是甜蜜归甜蜜….事实归事实

我们分开了…..我们有缘成为情侣…但我们没分在一起…^^

开心过就好了….

哈哈哈哈

还有我会记得kukup 的

因为我献出了我的第一次的吐。。。因酒而吐的

哈哈哈哈

我就是我

荒废中

在考试其中的我 , 竟然敢敢在看网上小说….

有点不知死活….哈哈哈

原本以为看看一小小段

怎么知道我却迷了下去

睡也睡到12点

吃也只是吃maggi

新的筷子还是不如旧筷子的好

………….

考完试的我也很过分

一考完就直接去玩

那天的我

其实很庆幸….可以与你差肩而过….(哈哈哈)

虽然只是短短的四个钟头….

却让我感受到我原本的性格

我很高兴 , 原来我还活着…我还没有迷失…我还是我…

很庆幸的有那个缘与你相见，遇见

看看你跟你的朋友玩得像猴子或小丑，很可爱也很帅气哦~！

你的存在让我高兴…

原来我还没变！

这才是重点！….我依然喜欢 ***** ……..

原来我有我的难处….原来当我在假笑时…你也知道

哈~ 真讽刺……我假好辛苦哦….那我该不该再去假假呢？

可能该假的时候，就该假一假

不该时就不假 ~(废话)

突然觉得很多事情都变了

变得不再单纯，不再简单

这一切一切都是自己所造成的….

自己必须明白这固中的道理….

才会成长…..我也明白，了解…

所以我想通了…..

一个家庭

近来的我们的确有点小无聊

这一切一切是由我们的老大开始的

(虽然他不是真正的老大, 这只是一个称呼)

在这家庭里….我们扮演不同角色.

老大         =爸爸 = 曾受害                                   Bryant       = 舅舅 = 梅凉信

我             = 妈妈 = 申晶冰                                 Choonyen = 叔叔 =曾仁耀

Yanying     = 二奶 = 曾氏莎婆                             Alan            = 叔叔 = 曾龚祝

Yongwei    = 大姐大= 梅淂鹫                              Michelle    = 姑姑 = 曾惠瓻

Jill              = baby = 曾晓俪

Kevin         = 哥哥 = 曾百赐

Yonghao    = 叔叔 = 施仁綉

Cwen         = 婶婶 = 梅游猱

在这些名字里却有不同的意思 ，哈哈哈

虽然我很不想成为妈妈….我也很同意的把位子让给yanying

哈哈哈。。。。。。 希望yanying 会照顾家里的成员。（虽然很难）

但我相信她！

哈哈

这是我们的家庭也是我们的gang ！也是一个团！

名为 SIAO GROUP !