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bored bored ~ bored bored ~ bored bored ~
except bored.. im still feel bored ~//=.=...( please don't kill me)

Yea yea yea yea.. what I can do is...
Just sit down and think what i can do ...

think think think think think think think think think think think think think think think think
think think think think think think think think think think think think think think think think

But the result is... I m not thinking what i can do !!!!!
I m thinking the past ~!!!
In my world.... Past mean Past d... no more in my recently world ~

My first boyfriend ~~(consider as first)
emmmm.. even though we had bad ending between us, but i still appreciate it..
I m glad that you become more mature ~..
and hope you can understand what i felt last time ~..
the time we were together 2 years....
and really make me feel jealous and envy on that girl...that truth.!!! is a fact !!!
she is luckily girl ~ He is a good guy.. please take care of him ~...
Both of u.. stay happy ya ~~~ ^^

then

My second boyfriend. ~~
I think my uni friends knew who is my second boyfriend was....lolx..
so that I not need to mention it again  .. or what..
and unluckily, we just together for 3 months more ~><..
I not really care how long we together ~
Im just care about the result.. after finished relationship..
I know that I gained alot experience .... many many different type of situation ~
Im so happy i still survive it..
Everytime, every moment, every second just like a war..that is because of his ex-gf ~ SALLY ~(highlight  her name)..
Thank sally so much... you gave me a special moment, when u told me you had his secret and didn't wish that i get involve apart..
that moment.. really feel like......We were acting.. acting like how ex-gf destroy the relationship.. and so on so on... thank a lot... without you.. my life wont be so awesome ~.^^.. it's truth ~

Ha........... seriously, my life was not really bad..
compare with some south africa's citizen.. i m a luckily girl ~~
at least i have food anytime, have shelf, family, relationship, money and so on...
I have a lot things ~.... just those part of my life have some negative impact.
But I believe that.. i can face it with confident...even though my result not so good.. and i m trying to improve my english now ~~~.. thats why I m using English to write those things in  my blog ~~.

So guys, please help me ~~!!.. sometime I know my temper is quite big and "smelly" ( translate to chinese) XD
But I wil try to change it ~.!!! and i know.. i had change alot from last time till now ~!!..
Im glad with it ~!!..i appreciate it!!!

God, I love you ~.. thank for giving me a chance to live in this world ~!!!
so that,i can enjoy my life.. I wish i dont have so much regretful thing in the rest of my life ~!..
I love you guys ~!

Ps: i know i m out of topic d ~!><

幕~

你可爱的笑面还存在我的脑里....
说实话...你很可爱...
再回想起来...我还是会觉得好笑..
并不是在朝笑...只是你的笑面让我觉得有点温馨....^^

希望那一幕我会永远记得~......

捕抓

在深夜里....躺在床上的我...
尝试去让我的双手去捕抓某某东西....
但是那东西我能捕抓的是空气...

空荡荡的手.....就如空荡荡的心...
心里也慢慢感到空虚....
尝试用任何事来填补心中空虚感...
可能我找不到安全感.....

"安全感" 这三个字在我的字典里
是鲜少出现的....
这三个字....每一个人都希望可以拥有..
常常说要的只不过是安全感...可以是却难以拥有..
可是当你们说出这些时...有没有想过.....
你能不能给于安全感呢??

我也尝试去放松的去依赖你..
可是当我想去依赖你时....你却不知所终...你给的安全感也没了..你给的依赖也完了...
捕抓去捕抓来....
却捕抓了空气....

在我深思熟虑.....决定了放手....
不再去捕抓了....
慢慢的去挣开手.....让你慢慢的停留在我手中....

走与留....自个去想~......

家----一支破碎的家

家, 永远是游子的避风港....
回家的感觉永远是最棒的...

这两句对以前的我来说...
的的确确无疑的认同....
只是对现在的我来说....我只能说我无言...

场面很僵，气氛很诡异....
动不动就只能用眼睛去杀人....（可是就是杀不了人）
哈。（嘲笑着）
可能问题早已出现.....只是那房间是个导火线...

大姐已不再尊重。原因? 我就不说...毕竟是家丑....

我姐问我....“为何不放开？你明明知道最后辛苦的是你自己。
我知道，我也很辛苦......我也很想看开....
我就是看开不了.....
为什么我看不开？？？

到了今天，我才知道为什么我看不开...

我看不开就是因为我在乎 !!!!!!!!!

如果不重要....我需要那么辛苦吗？？

外界的东西虽然重要........可是就是不比家重要....
所以我才可以轻易的忘记，看开，放弃，不在乎。
现在我才知道.....我重视它....它却不重视我 !!!!!!!
待下去.....我会死 !!!!!
累 !!!!!!

How About .....

Everything in this world is not  really follow rules go..
even people...is the same..

How about a guy younger than the girl saying that..
" I felt different feeling toward you.?"
" I felt elder than me.. it's better"
the relationship between him and me are vague..
Seriously, i have not feeling toward him..
the time i started to sms with him is from the time we met at park..
That time i just break with chuck.. The things i wanted to just a friend to chat.
He is the person who always chat with me..I'm glad that i know him and get know about him well..

AND

How about a question come to you? " Will you go? if your ex-gf or ex-bf ask for a sleep together?"
Will you go or reject it?
I think mostly people will answer ." of course not going.."
Actually, the real answer is only in your heart?
tell the true?
you don't want go? or you wan go but scare the answer you are telling, people will afraid or surprise?

AND

How About your family are kinda like traditional?
Will Boy is more important than girl ~!?
WHAT THE FROG !!!!!
I have nothing to say about this.. serisouly speechless...

Last, but not least

How about your ex-bf or ex-gf is playing a relationship is vague with you??
sound funny, right?
especially for me.. this is the time i break with bf, then i still can friend with them immediately..
HA.... funny..

The things i said above really funny, right?
And i have speechless on it..
Seriously, helpless and hopeless on those situation..
ha... what i can do is.. just face it...
as you said, everyone live in this house.. the expense you pay ..
Ok, fine. let me pay for you ~!...!!!

latest ME

Recently, I made a big different style for myself..

At first, i rebonded my hair..

also, change new hair style.. the hair style let me look like a kid.- a cute kid..XD

because of this, my face look like more chubby than last time. The most important is I cant accept lor !

but after a few days, i started to get use to it to my new hair style.. especially, after i washed my hair after two days more. My hair look so nice until i cant believe it..

This is my new hair style bahxx... look nice?? heheh...
actually i quite surprise and love this hair style.. XD

From the picture.... Can see that i was wearing NEW GLASSES !!!

Muahahaha.. how was it?? is it ok? or weird? or like a nerd?

seriously, the new glasses and new hair style are quite suit. ;p~XD

hahaha... to sum up...I love this hair ~ New glasses ~ hahahahaha..

nice one !!!

Yea, not yet finish ~

My new HANDPHONE ~that is HTC ARIA !

muhhohohohoho

nice handphone for my currently life..hahaha...

Touchscreen hp ~ 

before this... i was used Nokia 6610... All full key pad ~

suddenly change to touch screen... really cant get use to it..

But finally ~..... after two days.. I can use this phone smoothly ~

hahaha... of course not really like a pro techncal ~

I still need a lot of time to get use to it.. and make sure that i can use this phone as a part of myself ~

hahahahaha

Clothes... 

how about the clothes.~~

hahaha... because I brought too many clothes.. so that, i could not take all of the clothes...

the clothes i wore recently is new de ~

hehehe

With those things ~~~

I can get a new life..muhohohohoho...

Really awesome ~!

I had make a big change in my life ~

And I found a turning point !~

I'm glad it !~